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I'm nervous. Undecided in fact.
That makes this harder to do.
Which path do I take?
I have choices to make.
I don't want to make them though.
Uncertainty freezes me in my place.
If I make a move, I could win big or lose.
If I choose, it may be great.
It may be the worst decision ever made.
Weighing this on the scales.
So far my fears prevail.
If I go for it, at least I can move on;
No matter the verdict.
Can I take the heartache?
Can I deal with the pain again?
Do I really want to know the answer?
I don't know.
So for now I wait, afraid.
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